Post by Bee on Dec 21, 2009 9:25:05 GMT
India's Camping Trip:
I took mum's diary, i know dad would murder me if he knew that i was writing in it...but i thought that it might help, seeing as these dreams are about her.
I sat on the bus on the way to camp reading and re-reading the entries that mum wrote about dad. She loved him so much..the entries are similar to the ones that i wrote in my diary about a boy two years ago, that shocked me a bit. Dad had started a diary after mum died...he wouldnt let me look at it but when he wasnt home one day when i was 14 i snuck into his room and read it, it was all so sad, Dad said that he couldnt look at me for days after mum died, because i have her eyes. I dont think that i look anything like anyone in my family...apart from mum, but of course she isnt around. I met my biological grandmother through my half-aunt who happened to be friends with my cousin Chloe. My half-aunt Cara is only four years older then me, we look alike but neither of us had any idea that we were Auntie and Niece until my dad pointed out that she looked like me and asked me who she was when he picked me and Chloe up from the cinema's one time.
Cara and I had become good friends, but i have trouble getting along with Josie, she's six years older then me and in Uni, she's a bit of a nerd to be honest, she would get along with Alex Kinski (Dad's friend Zeke's son).
Joanna (Dad told me to never call her grandma) is alright i suppose, looks at me sadly some times when i go to stay at Cara's house...One time she actually called me Bridget in a conversation. I told dad about it but he brushed it off and said that Joanna had no right to call me Bridget. I had no idea until a read mum's entry in her diary about Joanna why dad and mum hated her so much.
My own grandmother had tried to tell my mum to give me up for adoption....I'm glad that they didnt go through with it...I'm happy to have dad, grandma and Chloe around me.
Dad told me once that he didnt grow up with his older brother Ollie, that was when i asked him why he didnt know Oliver and his favourite show as a kid. I thought that it was weird that my grandmother had become a mother as a teen...not much older then me, i think that grandma would murder me now if i became a mum, but i suppose she didnt murder dad when he was 18 when i was born so you never know.
When i told my best friend Georgia about the dreams that dad and i had been having she was skeptical and told me not to get my hopes up. I think she thought that i was expecting mum to pop up again and Dad, Mum and I could be a family again...get real i'm not that stupid. Dad had been a bit reluctant to let me go to camp by the end of the month as we'd both not had another dream yet and we both thought that this was my mothers influence. Dad had even gone so far as to ask if he could ring me at camp and the camp leaders told him that he couldnt and now they all think that i am some weird kid that needs to be tucked in by her dad every night....
Anyway my bus just stopped at our campsite, oh joy, ten days of walking up hills to go! wish me luck!!
I took mum's diary, i know dad would murder me if he knew that i was writing in it...but i thought that it might help, seeing as these dreams are about her.
I sat on the bus on the way to camp reading and re-reading the entries that mum wrote about dad. She loved him so much..the entries are similar to the ones that i wrote in my diary about a boy two years ago, that shocked me a bit. Dad had started a diary after mum died...he wouldnt let me look at it but when he wasnt home one day when i was 14 i snuck into his room and read it, it was all so sad, Dad said that he couldnt look at me for days after mum died, because i have her eyes. I dont think that i look anything like anyone in my family...apart from mum, but of course she isnt around. I met my biological grandmother through my half-aunt who happened to be friends with my cousin Chloe. My half-aunt Cara is only four years older then me, we look alike but neither of us had any idea that we were Auntie and Niece until my dad pointed out that she looked like me and asked me who she was when he picked me and Chloe up from the cinema's one time.
Cara and I had become good friends, but i have trouble getting along with Josie, she's six years older then me and in Uni, she's a bit of a nerd to be honest, she would get along with Alex Kinski (Dad's friend Zeke's son).
Joanna (Dad told me to never call her grandma) is alright i suppose, looks at me sadly some times when i go to stay at Cara's house...One time she actually called me Bridget in a conversation. I told dad about it but he brushed it off and said that Joanna had no right to call me Bridget. I had no idea until a read mum's entry in her diary about Joanna why dad and mum hated her so much.
My own grandmother had tried to tell my mum to give me up for adoption....I'm glad that they didnt go through with it...I'm happy to have dad, grandma and Chloe around me.
Dad told me once that he didnt grow up with his older brother Ollie, that was when i asked him why he didnt know Oliver and his favourite show as a kid. I thought that it was weird that my grandmother had become a mother as a teen...not much older then me, i think that grandma would murder me now if i became a mum, but i suppose she didnt murder dad when he was 18 when i was born so you never know.
When i told my best friend Georgia about the dreams that dad and i had been having she was skeptical and told me not to get my hopes up. I think she thought that i was expecting mum to pop up again and Dad, Mum and I could be a family again...get real i'm not that stupid. Dad had been a bit reluctant to let me go to camp by the end of the month as we'd both not had another dream yet and we both thought that this was my mothers influence. Dad had even gone so far as to ask if he could ring me at camp and the camp leaders told him that he couldnt and now they all think that i am some weird kid that needs to be tucked in by her dad every night....
Anyway my bus just stopped at our campsite, oh joy, ten days of walking up hills to go! wish me luck!!