Post by suse on Jul 28, 2009 6:31:21 GMT
Seeing as this is what we do best I thought we should just have a general gushing thread.
Now that decget is over at Aus pace we can now live in the past at Uk pace. This is what we still have to look forward to
W/b 10th August: wedding week
17th August: winter cool festival
24th August: India's arrival
31st August: India's homecoming
7th September: Didge back at school/arrested etc
14th September: Didge goes to Oakey
21st September: The end of Decget
Thanks to Jeffiner on Nfans.
Also Dec has now taken over Didge's diary, which I am thrilled about, and its a good way to keep close tabs on his Didge angst which I am happy to say is at an all time high.
I Love You Bridget Parker
28/07/2009 9:00 AM
Didge left this place in her memory….I remembered last night that she use to write a diary, and I sat at the computer for hours, reading and re-reading all her thoughts, right from the very beginning till the very end. I can't live without her, I don't want to live without her. But somehow I have to. Maybe…. I will find some sorta peace writing this, but I doubt it. I'm going to continue her diary, in her memory.
Dear Didge,
Life without you sucks. Really sucks. Didge, I lost it big time when you left, I can't breathe without you. The pain is too much. I feel like my heart has been ripped in to tiny pieces. Without you, I'm not me. Who is going to give me the answers now?
A part of me wanted to die so bad, I just wanted to be with you. I have to admit, and I'm so sorry for this, but I couldn't look into Indy's eyes for days, it was too hard Didge. I promised you that I'd look after Indy forever, you made me make that promise….before you died. I didn't know you were going to die, I couldn't imagine life without you, I didn't want to imagine a life without you. But now, I'm living life without you and I can't stand it.
I'm looking after our little girl, I'm trying. Libby helped. She helped me see that it won't be easy, none of my life will be easy without you, it will never be the same…. But Indy needs me…and I promised you!
I will write this diary to you, to all your friends, to keep you alive, with us. A place where I can talk about Indy, talk to you about what's going on, maybe I'll find answers here, maybe your thoughts, your memory, will filter through. You'll tell me what to do, I need you too, still! I know I'm just reaching out for something, anything, to keep you alive. It's so hard to live without hope.
I can't stand Steph, she killed you, she did it. It was the steering wheel, she serviced the car and left the steering wheel unchecked. I'm going to make her pay for it. Yeah, I know you wouldn't like it, but I want her to feel the pain I'm feeling, for the rest of her life. She took Indy's mum away from her, her stupidity took you away from me. And I'm in SO MUCH pain, because of her.
I smashed her car windows, two of them, with a baseball bat. Yep, it was dumb, it was a dumb Declan thing to do. I can hear you now. If you were here you wouldn't have let me do it. But you're not here! And I'm so angry I don't know what to do Didge, I don't have the answers without you. I visit your grave every day, but I know you're not there.
Indy is doing okay, I guess she feels she's lost her mother, she knows something's happened. She's been crying a lot. I talk to her like we use to, and I tell her about you. I won't let her forget you.
I have to go…. Nothing really helps right now, to ease the pain, they say it's just time! For me it will be eternity.
I love you Bridget Parker!
Declan
Now that decget is over at Aus pace we can now live in the past at Uk pace. This is what we still have to look forward to
W/b 10th August: wedding week
17th August: winter cool festival
24th August: India's arrival
31st August: India's homecoming
7th September: Didge back at school/arrested etc
14th September: Didge goes to Oakey
21st September: The end of Decget
Thanks to Jeffiner on Nfans.
Also Dec has now taken over Didge's diary, which I am thrilled about, and its a good way to keep close tabs on his Didge angst which I am happy to say is at an all time high.
I Love You Bridget Parker
28/07/2009 9:00 AM
Didge left this place in her memory….I remembered last night that she use to write a diary, and I sat at the computer for hours, reading and re-reading all her thoughts, right from the very beginning till the very end. I can't live without her, I don't want to live without her. But somehow I have to. Maybe…. I will find some sorta peace writing this, but I doubt it. I'm going to continue her diary, in her memory.
Dear Didge,
Life without you sucks. Really sucks. Didge, I lost it big time when you left, I can't breathe without you. The pain is too much. I feel like my heart has been ripped in to tiny pieces. Without you, I'm not me. Who is going to give me the answers now?
A part of me wanted to die so bad, I just wanted to be with you. I have to admit, and I'm so sorry for this, but I couldn't look into Indy's eyes for days, it was too hard Didge. I promised you that I'd look after Indy forever, you made me make that promise….before you died. I didn't know you were going to die, I couldn't imagine life without you, I didn't want to imagine a life without you. But now, I'm living life without you and I can't stand it.
I'm looking after our little girl, I'm trying. Libby helped. She helped me see that it won't be easy, none of my life will be easy without you, it will never be the same…. But Indy needs me…and I promised you!
I will write this diary to you, to all your friends, to keep you alive, with us. A place where I can talk about Indy, talk to you about what's going on, maybe I'll find answers here, maybe your thoughts, your memory, will filter through. You'll tell me what to do, I need you too, still! I know I'm just reaching out for something, anything, to keep you alive. It's so hard to live without hope.
I can't stand Steph, she killed you, she did it. It was the steering wheel, she serviced the car and left the steering wheel unchecked. I'm going to make her pay for it. Yeah, I know you wouldn't like it, but I want her to feel the pain I'm feeling, for the rest of her life. She took Indy's mum away from her, her stupidity took you away from me. And I'm in SO MUCH pain, because of her.
I smashed her car windows, two of them, with a baseball bat. Yep, it was dumb, it was a dumb Declan thing to do. I can hear you now. If you were here you wouldn't have let me do it. But you're not here! And I'm so angry I don't know what to do Didge, I don't have the answers without you. I visit your grave every day, but I know you're not there.
Indy is doing okay, I guess she feels she's lost her mother, she knows something's happened. She's been crying a lot. I talk to her like we use to, and I tell her about you. I won't let her forget you.
I have to go…. Nothing really helps right now, to ease the pain, they say it's just time! For me it will be eternity.
I love you Bridget Parker!
Declan